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I'M NOT USED TO HAVING THIS MUCH SUSTAINED ATTENTION ON MYSELF MY LEGS ARE EQUALLY CONFUSED AND TENSE WHO IS THIS COOL GIRL HE'S TALKING ABOUT? --HOPING IT WOULDN'T TAKE TOO LONG?

AND EVEN THEN, BEING WITIH HIM SOMETIMES FEELS LIKE JUST ON THIS SIDE OF NORMAL THEY'RE ALWAYS SAYING OR DOING DUMB SHIT ASSHOLES LIKE HIM ALWAYS LIKE THE SO-CALLED WEIRD GIRLS THE CRAWLING FEELING UNDER MY SKIN

-- AND THE PULL OF MY SHIRT OVER MY TORSO FEELS WEIRD IN SPOTS-- -- THE FEELING OF IT IS TICKLISH IN A WAY THAT I HATE-- --IT TRIED TO COME UP AGAIN BRIEFLY WITH MARK WHEN HE PANTED THE WORD BEAUTIFUL RIGHT INTO MY EAR--I SHOULD HAVE LEFT ROOM FOR FALLING IN LOVE, FOR ENJOYING MY OWN BODY THE WAY THAT I WANTED TO--